Patient Notes: Like I Never Left

7 months post injury, 210 days post injury, 197 days post-op It’s been a while since I last wrote; I think these pieces have been more important for me than you. And I think that being back on skis, feeling as though I was finally breaking down the barriers I had feared for months meant that I didn’t need to write as much. Sure, there were tough moments. Every World Cup race

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Patient Notes: Part 4

82 days post-op, 99 days post injury Perhaps this has been the hardest installment of this series to write. That is part of why it has taken me so long. It seems I have hit the middle stage of recovery: the in between part where I am both progressing and content and also anxious and depressed. It’s difficult to say how this could be, but as I write it I find it

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Changing Course

The Friday before finals week, I decided to take the day to go skiing at Whiteface to let off some steam before the stressful week to come. My friends and I made the 3 hour trek to the mountain and had an absolutely amazing day on the snow together. On our very last run of the day, I hit a soft spot of snow and hit the ground extremely hard… going extremely

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Patient Notes: Part 3

57 days post injury, 40 days post op, 6 days post second op When I announced my injury, I stated that the coming months would be excruciating—excruciating in the mental sense. Thinking back now, I didn’t know all of the ways that this would test me. I still can’t say if I will be better for it. It’s been a while since I’ve written; almost six weeks to be exact. But I

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Patient Notes: Part 2

17 days post crash, day of surgery… Pain is temporary. 17 days ago my life was sliced open, today my body was. I am beginning to hope that both of those wounds may now begin to heal. When I was first diagnosed with my ACL tear they told me that I could wait, they said ‘you don’t need to make any decisions now.’ They told me I could have surgery at Thanksgiving

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Patient Notes: Part 1

Five days post crash… I’ve been in this sport for a long time – more than 15 years of racing now. I have watched countless teammates, friends, and fellow competitors go through this injury. Long ago I came to terms with the fact that it would come for me too. But knowing that it would come and that it did are two different things. Anterior Cruciate Ligament (ACL): the three little words

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One Day at a Time

“How are you feeling today?” I’m asked 20 times a day by 20 different people. My normal response, “I’m feeling alright.” I just can’t explain to everyone: I feel like crap, my head hurts…

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The Paradox of Pushing Yourself Slowly

Rehab after an injury is no one’s idea of fun. When I got injured, some people outside of my team said how nice it would be to have time off, to not have to work so hard, and to just “sit around and watch Netflix.” While this was pretty much the last thing I wanted to do, it also turned out to be a wholly inaccurate picture of life during recovery…

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Seven Ways to Stay Sane on the Sideline

Confronting an injury is tough in any setting but is even more painful when you have to attend practice or games. The way you experience your sport, team and self has changed. Here are a few things I’ve learned after coming back from surgery to manage stress, time, and expectations while you sit out and heal…

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The Second Time Around

Anyone that has torn an ACL, or has heard a story of someone who has, knows of the one sound that while small and quiet, has the power take down the strong and mighty…

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